I’m only too excited to get to Calinfornia. It’s so close. So much has been done, yet so much remains and only 1.2 days. ! Back and forth will be topsy turvy for awhile. I cant wait to get a wetsuit and board and roll a barrel. I miss socal so much! But my days here in Chicago may have to be conitued a little later on for a little while… But as for Tuesday I am outta here!

 Dear Diary,

     I’m feeling so good I have began singing and dancing again this morning and even working on my vocals. Believe it or not, I can carry a tune and I think I’m getting my groove back, like stella…

(i loved that movie)

I even did two late nighters, which I never do. It was wildly fun. Wild night is calling me sometimes.

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 Dear Diary,

     I just woke up from a wonderful  but rare nap on my couch. I was watching the new dvd Julia ans Julie about Julia Child and it was so boring I guess I dozed offI sat to type  with a feeling someone was thinking about me and just as I began to type to you my phone was rining.I ignored it and thought of a nice green pond, with crickets and took a measured breath. I have a morbid fear of phones,when they ring I stare at them with building horror as if some extraterrestrial might be calling. Probably because I got a voicemail about my dad dying a few years back. It was so casual, i had to play it three times to believe it. I’m getting better but talking on the phone to anyone makes me breathless and my pulse races and I’d much rather email. My words come out easier through my hands. In fact, my mother and I only text, if that. I just sent her an expensive sweater I bought for her.I hope she likes it.Here’s a pic of me for you. I hope you like it.

I guess he thought I was going to go straight for his cock. I don’t know, but when i began to rub warm liquid(oiless,dries up…no sticky) into his whole pubic area I could see the anticipation in his eyes, not knowing what to expect.I was happy to see he had shaved..not that it matters,except slighty more pleasurable without the hair so you can add sensation to the skin.

     His lingam still lay soft anf fat, comfortably against the side of his leg as I made small circular motions with my hands all over the base and surrounding area. Kind of  like a breast cancer exam.lol. I’m just getting circulation going, blood pumping, awakening his kundalini, energy.

   One hand picked up his scrotum and cradled it gently in my hand, letting the warmth penetrate and squeezing slightly. I began to massage the root chakra..(sacred spot) ..the part of a man that exists between anus and balls.. the taint.. the outser side of the prostrate.

  Still cradling his balls I massaged the root chakra and his scrotum skin tightened, me no longer needing to hold it. With both hands no free I massage the penile muscles at the base of the lingam, and I can control movement of the  lingam by pressing these muscles a certain way. I move the lingam back and forth a few times without touching it, and this is where the man gets the look in his eye, the curiostiy is gone, he is relaxed and now awakening and looking forward to whatever is to come.

     I trace a line up his shaft with one finger with holding the tip of his dick head in a slight pinch with two fingers. Soft and pleasurable this prevents the man from having the contractions that cause orgasm. He takes in his breath, excited, having not ever been touched like this. He has been doing as I instructed and just lying there and breathing deeply, just receiving. He is not trying to come, or trying not to. He is expereincing heightened sensations from the breathing and can feel energy already coursing through his body. This is new and he is overwhelemed, relaxed and excited all at once. I love doing this.

     Now I begin the “Helmet Massage” Using softened liquid fingertips, i give the entire head of the lingam a massage all over, then over again. He has propped another pillow under his  head and is watching,fascinated. His dick, which had been hard has now grown a bit laonger and it harder than ever, but yet he is not moved to orgasm. It’s almost too much to take, but dont stop.

  NOw I do the JUICER I gently ttwist the head in one way while shucking the shaft, up down, up down. This is intense and actually wrings more and more blood throughout the penis, making it so engorged I have to back off a bit so he can calm down. He is moaning low and long now, surprised, and not embarassed.. just in oblivion and a true captor of it, he can do nothing but experience shock wave after shockwave of weird new pleasure.

   I begin with the scrotum and scared spot again, leaving the lingam to pulsate thoruhgout the air, invigorated and amazingly hard. AS I work my way back t it the man is writhing, and after I feel he can take it no more , I allow him to release. And I had not prepared for such a big release..i must of took all of his come becuse it filled the whole towel under him. He was shaken, and needed time to relax and recover. I cleaned him with a steamed towel and removed the cummy towel that was under him  and covered him with a soft fragrant blanket and as he relaxed to the calming music and surge of endoprhins through his body, i quietly leave the room feeling very much a goddess and pour him a  steaming cup of Earl Grey.”Pretty intense stuff ” he says as he wakes froma  breif slumber or doze , and looks at me like I am something otherwordly.  

goodgirl this is a free movie.so doubleclick it twice. . I had to shorten it to fit here so the scenes flash quicker..it was fun being spattered with fake blood..lol . Tonight I am filming a public voyeur type of scene thats way too hot !

  This is a lingam massage.

I pulled all my 180- good reviews (and one ok one) off of TER and they can be found here :http://groups.google.com/group/generosas-literary-corner–a-different-side-to-me-?hl=en and here :http://www.escorts.com/reviews/2509817/sanegoddess

 You can find some on TBD :http://www.bigdoggie.net/reviews/by-id/66736.html I am not a fan of reviews but if you must post, post them here. Bigdog is a great site up and coming, theeroticreview is a trashy site filled with newbie vips and questionable characters. If you DO go there, be very careful there!But I would ask that you boycott it!  Have a great weekend everyone. I look forward to seeing some of you. xoxoGG

ter is not getting to display my 180 awesome reviews, I have well established myself. Anyone that joins the site http://www.TheBigDoggie.net ( i think its like 10 or 20 $ once) will receive a 50$ discount from me at time of session! Lets build up this board as we take the other one down. Make sure and mention I am the one who sent you.

I am not answering my phone, so if you are someone i know and want an appt email me, i missed two of you last night sitting here , warmed off  a little tequila, I would of loved to have you.